Thursday, May 14, 2009

when u don't know what is right and what is wrong

i faced this situation quite a few times for the past 3 weeks. first, i went to a meeting of item building for SPM trial in Klang when at the same time, i was assigned to be the personnel in charge for Tcer's Day celebration. i did attend the meeting anyhow. every sinlge minutes of the meeting, i can't stop my mind from thinking what had happened to my students which i have assigned to cover my responsibility as the tcer in charge for the celebration. my other side was also keep reminding me that, i have done a big part by sacrificing lots of things, just to attend the meeting and prepare the finest quality of questions for the sake of of my own nation.but i can't resist the guilt which keeps lingering in my soul until i come back to school.then, another unfortunate event happened when someome has broken into my room and stole 2 hpones which belong to my students and a camera of mine. i was not that affected by the lost of my camera but i am surrouned by the guilt of not being a good guardian for my students' belonging.in fact i always face this kind of situation in my daily life. when a student of mine response to me in inapropriate manners, my conscience will automatically warned me not to get carried away with their childishness.sumtimes i did get emo with these things as i am not that perfect human which can face all these things patiently enough..i did feel so tired but nothing much i can do to ease it except to keep motivating and reminding myself the purpose of my existance there...i know i still have a very long journey to edure and i always pray that God will always keep me in my bestest condition so that i can carry the responsibilites wholeheartedly...