can I have a one month break with pay?

I

am so bored of my current situation as I am stucked in my current position without any improvement. I always want to improve myself to the FULLEST!

but with these so many barriers I have to undergo, it will be very much intricated for me to get through the challenges! I always pray that God will give me the potency and determination to achieve what I want as I always belief that

I CAN BE WHAT I WANT TO BE! Yay!

flattered...

FLATTERED...

one should feel like this (or if u could find stronger words to replace that)
when someone is willing to change because of you
when someone is willing to do anything because of you
when you know that someone is placing their highest hope on you
when this someone is far more beyond any words to be described..

emo

i am missing everyone and everything

SO MUCH!

my dear TESL friends....

Time has changed us to be so far from each other as we are burdened by our endless responsibilities..

so many things to be settled

so many things to be think of

so many things to be taken into consideration

this is what i always afraid of...when we no longer have time for each other...

when the memories start to fade away....

and when we feel nothing with the absence and silence of our friends....

but i believe that we always have the choice not to let this from happening...

no matter where we are and what we have become.

BEWILDER?

I am currently in that state

I guess...

What should you do when people put their highest hopes on you and you have to

scarcely cease their hopes without having an equitable way to explain your action?

Life always has it’s own way to lead us to uncertainty..

the never ending perplexity

i always thought that i am a good multitasker.but in time, i realise that it's hard for someone to focus on many things at one time..things will slowly fall apart without you noticing it..being placed in an intersection without knowing how the situation will be if you choose one of it is not an exciting task to be fulfilled. how can someone leave his comfortable, secure, moderate not-so-exciting life for something which he is not sure how will it be yet he has been wanting for it so long. Having a good, rational conscience might help a lot. but when you feel you have not fulfill your responsibility at your current position, how can you gayly move on - those who are selfish and never think of others is not included in this situation, tq. even a risk taker or a positive minded could be tangled by this situation. Things will go as what it will be but we always have the chance to make the right choice even if your mind is clouded by the imperceptibly haze...