What would U do? (another wh-Question..hehhe)

frankly..i wrote this blog few days bfore..errrr..okke

when i was sitting on the couch - of course at my home- this particular thots jumpd out from my memory box a.k.a kotak memori which made me a feel a bit down (dgn nada berbisik..which means that the tots really hurt me deeply..uuuuu..scary...)

cam nk becerite plak..it's my blog..ske ati la kn..the story begin like this..once upon a time..nahh..cliche! cani actually, i have known this particular indvd, so called a fren, for quite a few years.from not knowing anything about each other, we developed to be so closed..ye ke????..ragu2 skit..tpi biaselah..time passd by ppl change..so do us..Why do all good things come to an end.best lagu tu! u shud listen to it!

of course many things cntributed kpd kerenggangan kami..i'm not blamin anyone for this..it's to explain this actually bcos ppl wouldnt undsrtand what has really happen actually..to make it short..canila that person above lemme name that person "A"...has tortured my feeling so much..a mite b unconcious with the action..but sumtimes A gone beyond the limit and i cant take it! see i've told ya our predicament is complicated!
as i said earlier the things that A 've done which hurt me badly is when A start talking bad about my family! A ngumpat my family to toher person and thaht person told me.huh! A dun have the rite to do so eventho A knew me for years.A never knoe how my family is..like the saying u never know others cndition until u wear the same shoes! to talk bad on others family is a bad bad bad bad bad attitude to be practiced! xyah pon..u dun have to do that. MYOB is netter rite?
well what have i done with A?..hmmmphhh...i've done notin except for keeping evrytin to myself...hmmm..but in way i punished A..cey ye ye je..A is still my fren but i nver let that friendhip room in my heart for A..you got what i mean rite???yeaahhh....at firsti feel like killng A when i knew the story..but as i think deeper..no use in doing that..nothing going to change..thing has happened..i hope it happened for a reason..huhhu..btw it's A's lost and waste.not mine.hahha...self console tol..A never treasure and appreciate me as a fren kot..so y bother???no use to hold a grudge lagipon...no use...ignoring A is the best action to do! yayyyy!! yup kitorng still keep in touch but what A has done reallt taught me a lesson..to b someone more patience and more rational..i think..hahha..i'm at fault too i think..it's better to reflect everything back at me first before i blame anyone else...well it really improved my self, makes me feel better...i always ask myself..am i doing the right thing??? hard to answer rite??? i know..well lets embrace the truth! no use living in denial!let bygone be bygone..i'll always rmmber the tragedy as a reminder!..lets make the world a better place to live! hahhhaaa..bnynye mmbebel!
OUT.

these are the best days..

yep yep yep! da lime taon berlalu tnp kusedari-tipu la xsedar-...those years are part of meaningful moments in my life i have to say..sigh..i will surely miss everytihng dem much!!! sy ingt lgi the day sy g reg as a Pre-Tesl studnt kat jengka. that was once in a life time xperience being there for one "tremendous" week hahhhaaa!!! bongok tol kn kite kene bgn pgi2 kol 3 4 pastu mandi plak dlm bathroom yg tade lampu! da la sy ni takot gelap tpkse la bwk torchlite mandi skali..well the memory was sweet tho..i still rmmber pjoyBeeps pinjam hp sy sb nk call mak die time tgh gtong royong bersihkn blok sape2 ntah..iskh!! wajen nye kite!

being at sekilau was another great happy moment in my life!!!!Gowd!!!bgn pgi2 pgi bekfest kt dining..ade Bob nad Heri botak..hahha..beratur tpi pagar tu memalam bli mknan..gi men boling tgk wayang kat megamall..gi piknik kat t.c..iskh..it was raining time kite balik jalan kaki rerami tuh..huk9..heeee me,liza kurus,ceda and nana ug kene pggil ngn pakguard sb wat bising tgh2 malam kat bilik ostel..they urged us to bediri kat tgh2 padang memalam tu..tpi diorng x wat pon!!! hahha!!!herm those were the days then..

kat s.alam pon best jgk..wpon xbest sgt..hehhe..we r more matured here..keknun nk study sgt la tu.hahha!lepak2 kat kafe..men badminton malam2 kat hostel dulu (ira yammies and pjoybeeps was our loyal supporter then..diorng tgk kat tingkap je pon..hehhe).. went to p.d was fun fun fun..emph..nk cite ape jadik sepanjang 5 taon ni mmg xabes...many ups and downs have been thru..the sweestest thing is i stayed and lived with the same group (of cos the fab 6-us-me suria gpak ceda manje n nala) thrughout these years..we've shared many ups and downs toghter..gowd!!!! da windu kat sume2 dah!!!! sob2..the song (in courtesy of iraYammies) below are dedicated to all of u guys!!! dgn ingtan tulos iklas..OUT

With everything I've ever done

I'd give it all to everyone

For one more day

Another night I'm waking through

Another door I walk into

I can't break

And it's a winding road

And it's a long way home

So don't wait

For someone to tell you it's too late

Cause these are the best days

There's always something tomorrow

So I say let's make the best of tonight

Here comes the rest of our lives

I count the steps

The distance to

The time when it was me and you

It's so far gone

Another face,

Another friend,

Another place,

Another end,

But I'll hang on

And it's a winding road

And it's a long way home

So don't wait

For someone to tell you it's too late

Cause these are the best days

There's always something tomorrow

So I say let's make the best of tonight

Yeah, let's make the best of tonight

Here comes the rest of our lives

Rest of our lives

What's the FUSS???

i've been thinking and experiencing this kind of uneasiness for quite too long...err what am i trying to say ekceli..read further then..lemme ask u and myself of course..how do you deal with sumthing? do you take as what it is or do you ask for more? or keep comparing this with that and etc. still cant see what i mean rite? the example is as simple as this..r u a brand concious? me myself sumtimes a brand concious..but sumetimes ppl tend to be so obsessed and reject some product bcos it is a local brand..have u ever xperiencd that one?WHAT'S THE FUSS actually???well we r exposed to that kind of mindset evry milisecs i guess.so we r the product of society huh?? duhhh!!! same goes with some other aspects such as eating place, job,car,etc.

we keep searching for standard and class - no harm in doing that bcos it's the way we improve our live and if we deserve it-but remember that sometimes we shud just go with flow, take chances and be less choosy..heheee..we're just ordinary ppl, we dont know which way to go..
so lets enjoy the view and smell the fresh breeze..hahha!!!
OUT

Made me think...

yo yo! heh. the story i'm about to write is a true story..hehhe..apoda.. it happened when i was having my dinner at the kedai lilin with my fren manja..we were so lapar bcos we only had our last meal 7hours ago..we sat at the table while waiting for our food. sitting beside our table were a group of youngsters; their appearance are like a normal ppl and they are nicely dressed. they didnt make any noise from thier table. at first i tot that they were having dicussion in a low voice but when i looked closely-in a far distance-i was quite stunned as they used sign language; they r mute and deaf...simultaneously, it made me think how blessed i am to be gifted with the ability to hear and to vocal out my thots compared to this group of ppl.my mind keep winding as i rewind how have i utilized these gifts. was it to be grateful..to complaint or to talk about others' bad..the scene really made me think how lucky i am to be a normal person (with no disability so far..Alhmdulillah..) ..well that is life..we'll never feel what others' feel until we are in the same shoes..give more expect less! OUT.

KUANTAN!

I went way back to kuantan yesterday after 4 years leaving that memorable place...i was so excited when my frens (nik, aimi, ejie n fadli) suggested going to kuantan on a sudden decision. So yesterday morning, we convoyed (two cars) there and arrived at lunch our time…after filling up our empty stomach we headed to Telok Cempedeak...Yes T.C...haihhh...the memory of having our (sekilau teslians, class of 02/03) final trip there lingers freshly in my mind when I walked along the beach…coudnt stop myself from feeling gloomy..haih..i wish I cud be with others on that particular time..well back to reality..the place hasn’t changed much. still the same which is kewl. Except for the paid car park..i had so much fun there reminiscing my long gone memory...never tot that I can visit the place bfore I leave everything..my 5 years role as a TESL studnt i mean...zillions of thx to nik, aimi, ejie n fadli for helding this wonderful trip! time to sleep i guess..OUT.

the end doesn't seems so real...

hmpph...cane nk start ni..this my first time here. i do need support and guidance to work on this (i have problem signing in just now bcos i forgot my password! erkkhhh...). expressing thots thru writing is a good actvity to be involved (having an internet connection at home is a bonus then cos u can update ur blog everyday!)..no offense for those who disagree..plus it can improved ur writing, grammar and vocab! (wow what an educational benefits this can be..i've been exposed to think educationally for 5 years..so dont blame me!)..the title doenn't seems suaitable with this writng rite..so what?! it's my blog! my stomache is singing rite now. so i better off. OUT