hope it is still not too late....

for me to say....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

TO MY BELOVED FRIENDS

TO ALL THE BLOGGERS OUT THERE

AND TO EVERYONE...

bz yg amat!

i guess the title has clearly explained what i am trying to say here! yeay!

YEAP! I did it by myself!

yesterday, i went to renew my car's road tax (since it will be expired on sept 10) and insurance. i was quite nervous before i went through the process because this is my first time. huhu. as i arrived at the bank, i asked the officer how can i renew, and pleasantly he said that i need to go to the 1st floor for the process. then i went to the counter and settled everything smoothly...but before that, the man at the counter did ask me, do you want to renew ur car road tax? i said yes, then he asked me, can i see your license, i said ok. then he said, i looked young to handle everything, that is why he asked me those questions..lalu saya pn berkata2 dlm hati..hmmm..biase dah...haha. maybe the look of first timer was obviously showed in my face! ngeh. then he gave me a payment slip which stated quite a big amount that i need to pay at the ground floor's counter. so, i went down happily and wait for my turn. sorry to say, but the service was so slow even there was only less then 10 customers in the bank, i was the third and i have to wait almost 40 minutes for the payment ( they only open one counter eventho they have 4! huh!). while waiting, i saw a policeman outside the bank staring with interest at my car. then i realised, OMG! i've parked my car illegally in fornt of the bank. i then rushed panically before the policeman write a love notes to me. as i reached the door the guard told me to used the back door since the bank have to be sealed for a while to give way for the the bankers to reload the money in the atm machine.. i was like what the...(sabar bulan pose...)then i rushed to the back door and run (in my baju kurung for your info as i went to the bank straight away after school hour) to my car. saya pun berkate kpd en.polis yg telah pun mengluarkan love note nye dan tengah menjengah-jengah number plat kete saya.
"cik maaf ni kete saya" -
en.polis (with stern and soulless face) "awk pergi mane tadi?"
saya,"sy ade urusan kat bank cik"
en.polis "lain kali jgn letak kete mcm ni. salah. (sambil menutup love note nye dan menuju ke motor perondanye untuk blah).
"maaf cik..tak sengaje. time kasih" (sambil melompat kegirangn dlm hati..alhmdulillah)

ni sume salah org bank yg lembap tuh! huh! then went back in to the bank and waited for my turn patiently(thou my face was still red at that time i guess) and settled everything smoothly.. yay! hmmm... cian kene wat snirik sume bende nih sorang2...ni la naseb seorang perantau.. huhu. but i was happy becuase i have done what i have to do! hmm hmm.. btw, otw back to pokok sena, i've washed my car as well.. double yay!

can I have a one month break with pay?

I

am so bored of my current situation as I am stucked in my current position without any improvement. I always want to improve myself to the FULLEST!

but with these so many barriers I have to undergo, it will be very much intricated for me to get through the challenges! I always pray that God will give me the potency and determination to achieve what I want as I always belief that

I CAN BE WHAT I WANT TO BE! Yay!

flattered...

FLATTERED...

one should feel like this (or if u could find stronger words to replace that)
when someone is willing to change because of you
when someone is willing to do anything because of you
when you know that someone is placing their highest hope on you
when this someone is far more beyond any words to be described..

emo

i am missing everyone and everything

SO MUCH!

my dear TESL friends....

Time has changed us to be so far from each other as we are burdened by our endless responsibilities..

so many things to be settled

so many things to be think of

so many things to be taken into consideration

this is what i always afraid of...when we no longer have time for each other...

when the memories start to fade away....

and when we feel nothing with the absence and silence of our friends....

but i believe that we always have the choice not to let this from happening...

no matter where we are and what we have become.

BEWILDER?

I am currently in that state

I guess...

What should you do when people put their highest hopes on you and you have to

scarcely cease their hopes without having an equitable way to explain your action?

Life always has it’s own way to lead us to uncertainty..

the never ending perplexity

i always thought that i am a good multitasker.but in time, i realise that it's hard for someone to focus on many things at one time..things will slowly fall apart without you noticing it..being placed in an intersection without knowing how the situation will be if you choose one of it is not an exciting task to be fulfilled. how can someone leave his comfortable, secure, moderate not-so-exciting life for something which he is not sure how will it be yet he has been wanting for it so long. Having a good, rational conscience might help a lot. but when you feel you have not fulfill your responsibility at your current position, how can you gayly move on - those who are selfish and never think of others is not included in this situation, tq. even a risk taker or a positive minded could be tangled by this situation. Things will go as what it will be but we always have the chance to make the right choice even if your mind is clouded by the imperceptibly haze...

the beauty of friendship and love...

I was called out to write this entry last night when someone eagerly urged me to update my blog entry (it's not that i don't want to update, it's just that i don't have time to do so..huhu).. yup so many things had happened in my life ..as usual.. but above all those things.. these miraculous words; friendship and love, have always tied me to the ground and put me back into pieces no matter what had happened to me. i always believe, when it comes to love and friendship, these can happen to anyone regardless of their status and age..you can be a very close-knit buddy to others even if u only knew them for seconds and vice versa. the power of love can transmit your brain that love is boundless and its uniqueness when being transferred into friendship or any relationship can make you conquer the world..i always adore those who always cherished their love or friendship with endless support, determination, faith and understading towards each other. they added the value of their life with these astounding elements and make their day far more better worth living each day. one can find strength and faith when they treasure these vigorously words.. so many things can be changed if we broaden our minds and try to view things on the brighter side..

when you believe in these two words..this world will be a better place and it's not impossible!

no boundaries.....

i fell in love with this song from the first time i listen to it..words are so beautiful..this is dedicated to those who always have strong determination and belief in enduring this challenging life...you are what you want to be and there's always ways to get there as nothing can daunt your step!

no boundaries!

Seconds hours so many days

You know what you want but how long can you wait

Every moment lasts forever

If you feel you’ve lost your way

And what if your chances are already gone

Started believing that I could be wrong

But you gave me one good reason

To fight and never walk away

So here I am still holding on!

Cause every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricane

To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere

Just when you almost gave up on your dreams

They take it by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries

There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit

To stand on the edge

What if today is as good as it gets

Don’t know where the future’s heading

But nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I've heard every lie

I risked being safe but I always know why

I always know why

You can go higher

You can go deeper

There are no boundaries

Above and beneath you

Break every rule 'cause there’s nothing between you and your dreams.....

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe it's harder to believe

You make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanesto get to that one thing

There are no boundaries

There are no boundaries

There are no boundaries

when u don't know what is right and what is wrong

i faced this situation quite a few times for the past 3 weeks. first, i went to a meeting of item building for SPM trial in Klang when at the same time, i was assigned to be the personnel in charge for Tcer's Day celebration. i did attend the meeting anyhow. every sinlge minutes of the meeting, i can't stop my mind from thinking what had happened to my students which i have assigned to cover my responsibility as the tcer in charge for the celebration. my other side was also keep reminding me that, i have done a big part by sacrificing lots of things, just to attend the meeting and prepare the finest quality of questions for the sake of of my own nation.but i can't resist the guilt which keeps lingering in my soul until i come back to school.then, another unfortunate event happened when someome has broken into my room and stole 2 hpones which belong to my students and a camera of mine. i was not that affected by the lost of my camera but i am surrouned by the guilt of not being a good guardian for my students' belonging.in fact i always face this kind of situation in my daily life. when a student of mine response to me in inapropriate manners, my conscience will automatically warned me not to get carried away with their childishness.sumtimes i did get emo with these things as i am not that perfect human which can face all these things patiently enough..i did feel so tired but nothing much i can do to ease it except to keep motivating and reminding myself the purpose of my existance there...i know i still have a very long journey to edure and i always pray that God will always keep me in my bestest condition so that i can carry the responsibilites wholeheartedly...

suatu malam yang indah....

there is no purpose for me to write this entry. just a mere escapism of the hectic events i have gone through few months back. lot of things going on tho...i cant even concentrate myself to my family, my friend and the worse is to myself..fyi, for the time (11.58p.m) being i am waiting to endure another routine ; which is INSTANTLY exist as i carry the responsibility of a teacher, or to be exact a multitask(if only i could find another word to replace this word! suria help me!) teacher. it's not that i'm not satisfy with my current situation, but sumtimes i get tooooooooo tired of everything. i don't even have time for my meal (dont get me wrong folks, i managed to maintain my weight..hehe..)..emph..conclusion is, A SHIFT can be sumtin goo or bad depending on how u control the situation. the life is urs, so u determine it! tibe2 lak..till then!

if the road not taken..

when i was sitting blankly i front of my pc, this thought came across my mind..what if the road is not taken..i always remind myself to be the best i could be in whatever i do..sometimes it did across my mind.. what if things i have done is not right for me..what if things i have done is not meeting others' need..what if things i have done is not satisfying everyone...what if i cannot carry this responsibility anymore.. those prudence will always be apart of me as long a i live..but i always belief that God has His own plan for He will not test us for things we cannot endure..

THE CALLING..haha

Hey peeps! I really need a rest I guess. Being so occupied with my endless school’s responsibility (guess that I have become one of my principal’s reliable figure! Ting2!) I’m not so sure whether I am dedicated or forced to be soooo into my career. Let’s have a sneak preview on what I have gone through and will go through:

• 12-16 Feb 09 –

A national leadership course at SBPi K.Tganu (at least I got the chance to meet Suria that day! Yay!)

• 18 Feb 09 - School’s Sports Day (the sun’s ray had jovially burnt my skin!)

• 19 – 21 Feb 09 – Benchmark Visit to K.L (most of the teachers will be involved)

• 26-28 Feb 09 – Prefect’s leadership course in Perlis

(I know it will be tiring! Demmm!)

• March – leadership course, Penang - debate competition…

The list goes on actually…but I’m too tired to state the place I will have to go throughout this year. Yep I will be scattering over the country throughout this year! Yaaaaaaaaayyyy!!!! (in an exhausted tone…)

p/s: Jip, I’ll be going to SEMESTI in the early of April!

tale of a bird and a hill

Last night, when I was watching Majalah 3; the report was on the ramification of Israel attack on Gaza, the thought of how atrocious man could be keep enduring my mind as the show went on. The damages to human and environment are innumerable which has led to a lifetime ordeal. Numerous aids have been delivered to the region with the hope it can alleviate the Palestinians burden. The infuriate world’s community has done the best in their own way to save the land. The question is, have we done our best to save our brother in Gaza? Maybe we don’t know the right channel to deliver or show our concern. Or maybe we don’t even give a damn on what is happening around the world. Okay, enough of the intro. Last month, when I was lazily resting in front of the TV, I accidentally switched the channel to Al-Kuliyyah, which was discussing on the boycott issue on U.S and Israel due to the attack. The anecdote has caught my attention to stick to the show. On of the panel said that, during Rasullah S.A.W. age, there was a small bird, flying on its regular, saw a burning hill. The bird, with its small beak, repeatedly carried water from the nearest river to clear out the fire. The determination showed by the bird made me realized that the least we can do to help our brother in Gaza is by boycotting U.S and Israel. Yes, I use to say, it will not give any effect even if I boycott the criminals. But, now I understand, by giving a little contribution, it will make the world a better place to live. Sometimes, we don’t have to become a hero to be a hero. Do it in our own way and let us save the innocent!

Dear John...

horror! horror! haha..pakwan's lines during one of our drama presentation back in kuantan.. err why do i start my entry with that actually? maybe becuase i miss my friends or pakwan so much! auw! comrades! (especially suria, didi n gpak ; the novel worms!).. just want to point out that i've proudly finished reading "dear john" by nicholas sparks in less than a month. whish is my personal record for the time being in novel reading. so, i command y'all to buy the book and read it bcos the story is interesting! a tale of unconditional love and friendship... haha! love story of course! hmmm... i must say that i am proud of myself for sticking and treasuring the book and make my own novel-reading record! clap2! heeeee :)

no reason

i have no reason for this entry...just want to immortalise one of the precious memory i've shared with my fren...no matter how we have changed..the friendship we own will always remain the same..hopefully..btw we are the same saikos as we were before! lets keep it that way ok babe! heee..peace!