emo

i am missing everyone and everything

SO MUCH!

my dear TESL friends....

Time has changed us to be so far from each other as we are burdened by our endless responsibilities..

so many things to be settled

so many things to be think of

so many things to be taken into consideration

this is what i always afraid of...when we no longer have time for each other...

when the memories start to fade away....

and when we feel nothing with the absence and silence of our friends....

but i believe that we always have the choice not to let this from happening...

no matter where we are and what we have become.

BEWILDER?

I am currently in that state

I guess...

What should you do when people put their highest hopes on you and you have to

scarcely cease their hopes without having an equitable way to explain your action?

Life always has it’s own way to lead us to uncertainty..

the never ending perplexity

i always thought that i am a good multitasker.but in time, i realise that it's hard for someone to focus on many things at one time..things will slowly fall apart without you noticing it..being placed in an intersection without knowing how the situation will be if you choose one of it is not an exciting task to be fulfilled. how can someone leave his comfortable, secure, moderate not-so-exciting life for something which he is not sure how will it be yet he has been wanting for it so long. Having a good, rational conscience might help a lot. but when you feel you have not fulfill your responsibility at your current position, how can you gayly move on - those who are selfish and never think of others is not included in this situation, tq. even a risk taker or a positive minded could be tangled by this situation. Things will go as what it will be but we always have the chance to make the right choice even if your mind is clouded by the imperceptibly haze...

the beauty of friendship and love...

I was called out to write this entry last night when someone eagerly urged me to update my blog entry (it's not that i don't want to update, it's just that i don't have time to do so..huhu).. yup so many things had happened in my life ..as usual.. but above all those things.. these miraculous words; friendship and love, have always tied me to the ground and put me back into pieces no matter what had happened to me. i always believe, when it comes to love and friendship, these can happen to anyone regardless of their status and age..you can be a very close-knit buddy to others even if u only knew them for seconds and vice versa. the power of love can transmit your brain that love is boundless and its uniqueness when being transferred into friendship or any relationship can make you conquer the world..i always adore those who always cherished their love or friendship with endless support, determination, faith and understading towards each other. they added the value of their life with these astounding elements and make their day far more better worth living each day. one can find strength and faith when they treasure these vigorously words.. so many things can be changed if we broaden our minds and try to view things on the brighter side..

when you believe in these two words..this world will be a better place and it's not impossible!

no boundaries.....

i fell in love with this song from the first time i listen to it..words are so beautiful..this is dedicated to those who always have strong determination and belief in enduring this challenging life...you are what you want to be and there's always ways to get there as nothing can daunt your step!

no boundaries!

Seconds hours so many days

You know what you want but how long can you wait

Every moment lasts forever

If you feel you’ve lost your way

And what if your chances are already gone

Started believing that I could be wrong

But you gave me one good reason

To fight and never walk away

So here I am still holding on!

Cause every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricane

To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere

Just when you almost gave up on your dreams

They take it by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries

There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit

To stand on the edge

What if today is as good as it gets

Don’t know where the future’s heading

But nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I've heard every lie

I risked being safe but I always know why

I always know why

You can go higher

You can go deeper

There are no boundaries

Above and beneath you

Break every rule 'cause there’s nothing between you and your dreams.....

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe it's harder to believe

You make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanesto get to that one thing

There are no boundaries

There are no boundaries

There are no boundaries

when u don't know what is right and what is wrong

i faced this situation quite a few times for the past 3 weeks. first, i went to a meeting of item building for SPM trial in Klang when at the same time, i was assigned to be the personnel in charge for Tcer's Day celebration. i did attend the meeting anyhow. every sinlge minutes of the meeting, i can't stop my mind from thinking what had happened to my students which i have assigned to cover my responsibility as the tcer in charge for the celebration. my other side was also keep reminding me that, i have done a big part by sacrificing lots of things, just to attend the meeting and prepare the finest quality of questions for the sake of of my own nation.but i can't resist the guilt which keeps lingering in my soul until i come back to school.then, another unfortunate event happened when someome has broken into my room and stole 2 hpones which belong to my students and a camera of mine. i was not that affected by the lost of my camera but i am surrouned by the guilt of not being a good guardian for my students' belonging.in fact i always face this kind of situation in my daily life. when a student of mine response to me in inapropriate manners, my conscience will automatically warned me not to get carried away with their childishness.sumtimes i did get emo with these things as i am not that perfect human which can face all these things patiently enough..i did feel so tired but nothing much i can do to ease it except to keep motivating and reminding myself the purpose of my existance there...i know i still have a very long journey to edure and i always pray that God will always keep me in my bestest condition so that i can carry the responsibilites wholeheartedly...